Been a long long time since I blog. Yea...tomorrow I can get my long awaited leave. Really cant wait, especially when you dangle the carrot of Tuesday in front of me and later to take it away and push till Wednesday. Of course I'm unhappy.

Work has been tough and confusng. Practically no life during weekdays. Sometimes I really hope some friends will understand but sadly, some don't. Seen the ugly ugly side of work. Long mean hours, tired eyes, unhealthy lifestyle, unbalance life and short short hours of sleep. Within a week, I went home at 6am in the morning and go to work at 11am. Really couldn't take it. I asked myself alot of times whether do I really like this job. Am I content to lead this type of lifestyle? All along, I told myself and people around me, design is not forever. Work a few years and yes, it bye bye to the job. Unless you have enough capital, you set up your own design house of agency. Then no choice, that will be your rice bowl. If the people here are of better concience, better attitudes, better characters, I tink I can hold on longer in this line. Actually I quite like the stuff I'm doing. At least I don't touch the web parts. Doing up collaterals, brochures, eletters and all. Over here, I got to learn the different aspects of a designer. From a girl who is clueless about pantones, to the one who knows how to create the die-cuts and the FAs blar blar.Learn the tricks and skills of creating better works and DI-ing. I really did learn things over here. The only hateful thing is that, things are always queueing up for us to do. Loads and loads of it. When will work be finish? Its forever no-ending. Wrong course? I have been questioning myself with no answers. Agency? In-house? More $$?

Its very vexing. I having migrain. It sucks because all along I don't suffer from migrain and after working, all pains surfaced. Work or life OR work for satisfaction or work for money?  

All along I had been telling people around me, I wana catch Mamma Mia. But maybe I was late...I didn't see it in the big screens. Later did I know,it is only open in September. To my delight! =)

Caught it, though review wasn't that good but I like it! I cried, but the girl beside me was worse. She was sneezing and wheezing away. Crying like anything and her stupid bf didn't do anything to appease her. Haiz. What a guy. I lke Collin Firth's voice. He is good, though his face doesn't match his face. Haha. Pierce Brosnan has such a manly face and he is very charming...until he open his mouth to sing. He sounds constipated. And finally, Sophie is from Mean girls. Finally found my answer to my own question. Coz she really look familiar. I really want to catch the Mamma Mia musical when they come to town the next time. Serious. This Mamma Mia is shot in a Bollywood style. Weird but the songs helped to save it. And I like Greece. Hope to go there one day.

In a separate issue, I manage to catch the F1 in town. Had to avoid the traffic and travelled alot on foot just to catch a glimpse of the cars zoom by. Only that its too fast and could only hear the loud sounds of it. But nvm..at least I caught a glimpse of a few of them.

Hey! I like dorcas song in her blog...by elva Xiao Ya Xuen. Long time didn't listen to chinese song. Heard Fish Leong's song in her blog...made me feel sad. Wonder how is she doing. Really hope she is doing well there. Miss you Dorco.

I'm sick today. Doctor said brochities is coming back, better have lots and lots of rest to repair my body. Getting weaker when I age...not a good thing. It spells a hole in my wallet. Doctor bills =$102. My inhler is expensive. But mum help to subsidise. I lost weight =) I can now wear my japanese student 'uniform' Yeah...will be wearing that tomorrow. Japanese uniform with blue heels. Hahah Unique.

Someone gona criticise my fashion/colour taste. =X 

My coughing got worse and have to leave the company to see doctor. I'm scared my brochities is back. Hate the feeling when you could feel your hollowness of your lungs when you cough. Bleh.

HATE U!!!! U SAID u gona drive me to the doctor!!!!!! HaTE U!!!

Its been ages since I last blog. So lifes have been the same. Things to be update and this piece is something I can't make myself don't blog about it.

Recently I got set up to go for a "matchmaking" session. Had a dinner with some ex-colleagues. During my stint at PDSS, Boss and Uncle always joked, calling me the daughter-in-law of Uncle SIm. Have no idea where did that come from, but I just laughingly brush it away. Anyway, laughing and joking makes the days pass faster and of coz make the days of waiting for pay day much shorter. So why not.

Back to dinner at Yan Palace. Everyone was there, colleagues, colleagues ' spouses and some people whom till now I can't make out whos who. Sat at a 'prominant' place, in front of a TV. Practically in front of the TV, with my back facing it. I can still remember its the night of the Olympics where 'golden' girl Li Jiawei fighting for gold, only to lose out miserably. Can you imaging, people across the table are looking at the TV, which is looking towards my direction. Of coz it feels odd and I have to fakingly turn around and appreciate 'golden' girl. I don't like Olympics. Sat beside Aunty Sim. It was kinda cold as its the second time I saw her. What to tok about? Anyway Boss become "matchmaker", kept wanting to intro guys to me. Whats with everybody? Anyway, to make it short, duno wat came into Aunty Sim, she kinda got excited and kept wanting to intro her son to me and her nephew to Zhiyun. Zhiyun and I roll eyes. These type of stuff of coz have to be based on chemistry de...cannot anyhow anyhow de...haiz

1 week later. Received a mysterious call from an Aunty. Night of the Comex. When I finally make out who she was, she push the phone to her son. It was awkward, very. After that, he asked me out. I turned down the first as I was down with mumps. Then last Sat, he arranged another. A dinner at Park Mall Sakae Sushi. I wasn't looking forward to it, being...his voice doesn't sound nice over the phone and an image of a geeky fat guy formed in my mind. Maybe I'm bad, I am no beauty also but hey this is me ok! The meeting was different. He turned out exactly not I thought him to be. In fact, he is very good looking. Like his dad. I can't admit I was attracted to him. First date usually has many funny moments. I have to request him to pour soya sauce for me as I couldn't reach over for the trays. No way am I gonna have my sashimi without wasabi. That is a disaster. After that, we went to Fort Canning Park. The worst encounter was my heels got stuck in the holes of the route. I couldn't move my legs. Have to step down and pull out my heels, one by one. Damned. The first one got easily. The second one sinked down. He then walked over and help me pull out my heel. and pass the shoe to me. Kind of Cinderella hor...but it was damned malu. Mum have a great laff after hearing it. Haiz.

Made plans to go out today but things changed as both of us down with flu and his booking out timing was uncertain. He called me to chat a few times today and we chatted the most in the second phonecall. It kinda woke me up. People get spouses not because they wana have them or its the norm. Man meet girl. Love, marry and babies. Bleh. Chemistry plays a big part and some things you can't change them. Peer pressure. Bleh.

Anyway I'm happy with my life. I don't think women life is to get marry and have babies. Please. Of coz all women wana have a happy life, good marriage, good kids. Of coz when everything is established. When you think you are ready and he is the perfect guy you have been waiting for. Then you all move on to the second step. I am happy now. I don't need aman in my life to tell me what I should do and should not. And dun ask me who I go out with. I have my own life. Period.

Its been a long long time since I came online. Its just darn tired and sleep is not enough for me everyday.

Right now my focus is to get a new job and leave for a new environment. Bless me ok. I'm tired with design.

And I misses my paradise.

When you go would you even turn to say? I don't love you like I did yesterday.

Went down for LG Secret Launch. Was anticipating yesterday, took pains to choose my tops and bottoms. But urge die abit when I step into office. Had a feeling might not be going down. Something happen. Ok good...not going down. Made a bet over $1 Cheng Teng. Thought I will get free desserts tomorrow during lunch time...Still debating over the last hour. Finally we all went down. 4 of us. It was weird and seriously I rather go out and meet my future colleague. The secret affair was held at some ulu kampong area. Been there once but this times feels more ulu than the first. Snakes, ferrari and the stupid drunked bee that knock onto me and hits Danny's chin. Food was not bad. I believe my new colleague can eat 3 times than me. Danny suprisingly so gentle. Ate so little. Beeling was so excited as she point afar showing me the faraway Jurong Island. Hiaz..The one with big chimmneys and with thick fumes coming out from it. This is how she describe it. I believe I can eat more if I am not conscious....oh ya and got a phoito that is horribly looking. Din know to smile or to look dead serious and end up caught in the middle. Can you imagine the weird look?

Tired. I can't wait for Batam this Friday. Theres alot of things I'm looking forward to. A good rest is listed the top.